01. Intro
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02. That was
Scared of you when you trapped me inside of myself all alone
Scared of you for what you reached in my mind and you became
Scared of trying to escape from my own brain and you dogging me to death
Scared of trying to stay in an easy place and you creating there a hell
Catching me through the whole maze that my psyque had to clear up
Forcing me to decide among all the fucking things you imposed on me
Having me tied to the world that only you and I knew and no one else
You got me stuck in the mud that your menaces and lies wept keeping me dead
Oh, I was alone
Oh, that was your show
Oh, I was afraid
Oh, that was your need of control
That was
that was
that was
but now it's not
I tried to keep my sense in this place of blood and fucking scars
I began to find my exit in my secret place inside
I gained strength, gained confidence, your pressure was not the same
The cracks made light burst in, the wall began to shake
Oh, I was alone
Oh, that was your show
Oh, I was afraid
Oh, that was your fucking need of control
You put all the chains on me in this life full of shit,
all the fears that I had were thanks to you
You wanted to keep the thing, controlled what I believed,
kept at bay my free will and you prevailed
You killed my pride in my heart but I learned to go out,
I destroyed all the locks that kept me in
I built myself beyond you, I grew well above you,
and now my life is mine
Oh, I was alone
Oh, that was your show
Oh, I was afraid
Oh, that was your fucking need of control
That was
that was
that was
but now it's not
That was but now my life is mine
03. Enough
I am always what people expects of me
Ignoring my wish of having a life for me
"On my own" is a concept that I forget
I'm always swept by the fucking opinion of them
I wish to get out of this world of perverted loyalties and lies,
and I dream every night in my room I try to escape to be free
I need to be me once for all,
I've had enough, fed up of being void
People I meet and shits I need
that will destroy my soul
I made my mind and now it's time
to cut all these things off,
I've had enough
Caged by a vicious circle of lack of esteem
each time is harder to recall what I have been
supossed friends emit their opinions as well
"It's good for you" is what they say again and again and again
Feeling me die,
before the mirror I can only see a face in ice,
no traces of the fire I had once deep inside
I need to be me once for all,
I've had enough fed up of being void
People I meet and shits I need
that will destroy my soul
I made my mind and now it's time
to cut all these things off,
I've had enough
Before the mirror I can only see a face in ice,
I want to ignite in an explosion that annihilates
the whole world and sets me free
I need to be me once for all,
I've had enough fed up of being void
People I meet and shits I need
that will destroy my soul
I made my mind and now it's time
to cut all these things off
Fuck yeah,
I need to be me once for all,
I've had enough, fed up of being fucking void
People I meet and shits I need
that will destroy my soul,
no fucking more, now it's the time
to cut all these things off,
I've had enough
04. Allow me to be your enemy
Why are you always escaping
when I try to offend you while talking?
Why are you friends with bitches
and I can't be the greatest of them?
All the lies, I want them,
all the insults, I need them,
all the fights, I wish them,
I enjoy your flaming gaze
All these shits are funny,
my life here is not over,
you are there.
While dying I feel alive.
I was an addict to your boots
that pressed me while I was egging you on,
but when I returned the stamp
you simply ran away
The pain of you always ignoring me
is more than your punches breaking my ribs,
the pain is you always ignoring me,
allow me to be your enemy
Why do I see you arguing with them
but you don't even tell me I'm a bastard?
Why do I feel my heart all squeezed
by your indifference?
All the pain you inflicted, I need it,
my life is not a whole without it,
the stabs, the chokes, the lashes of your words
are missing in my ears
All the cuts are healing
but the scars, I keep them,
I want to bleed
injured by the edge of your tongue
Distress me, I beg you
I tended to think I asked you permission
and all that really was was my submission,
I mistook objective for destiny,
allow me to be your enemy
The pain of you always ignoring me
is more than your punches breaking my ribs,
the pain is you always ignoring me,
allow me to be your enemy
I tended to think I asked you permission
and all that really was was my submission,
I mistook objective for destiny,
allow me to be your enemy
05. Touch yourself
Breath,
foul,
fuck,
fist,
hand,
lust,
sex,
tongue,
vice,
wet,
hard,
pain,
control,
no love
Touch yourself, ah, ah, ah,
touch yourself and feel the happiness with my...
I am mechanical, I'm not irrational,
I've counted every time we've gone,
I am mechanical, I'm not irrational,
I've enjoyed every time you've come,
I am mechanical, I'm not irrational,
I've cried everytime you loved,
I am mechanical, I'm not irrational,
I never hated and loved before... beside you in time
06. Addict to industrial
Come, come, come, get some for me
I need it all,
I need the sounds,
I need the beats,
I need the songs
I need the dance,
I need the dark,
I need the voice,
I need the noise
I need the steam,
I need the lights,
I need the screams,
I need all these shits
Come, get some beats for me,
I need all the sound you give me
Come, get some noise for me,
I really need it
I tried to get the whole
but time is not enough to get it all,
I'm an addict to industrial, yes
I tried to get the whole
but time is not enough to get it all,
I'm an addict to industrial
I need it all,
I need the sounds,
I need the beats,
I need the noise
I tried to get the whole
but time is not enough to get it all,
I'm an addict to industrial
I tried to get the whole
but time is not enough to get it all,
I'm an addict to industrial,
I'm an addict to industrial
I'm an addict to industrial(,) bitch.
I need it all,
I need the sounds,
I need the beats,
I need the songs
I need the dance,
I need the dark,
I need the voice,
I need the noise
I need it all,
I need the sounds,
I need the beats,
I need the songs
I need the dark,
I need the noise,
I'm addicted,
addicted to industrial
I'm addicted to industrial
07. The bloody flesh and bone fish
(- Oh my god, what the hell is that?
- This is the bloody flesh and bone fish!)
This is the bloody flesh and bone fish... and bone fish
08. Hunting friends
I was alone in my room
but didn't want to be alone
anymore
So I went out to find
someone to share my room this night,
to enjoy this night,
And I was looking for a friend,
I met a lot of them,
what a night
A great night
I met a lot of friends out there
but somewhat I can't stand the way they talk
too much
So I used the knife,
I cut their necks,
I got their heads,
I brought them to my place, yeah
Now it's full of people
but they are only faces,
only heads, yes,
no body under them,
Now it's full of people in my place,
but there's no chat, no silly talk,
and I'm not alone anymore
this night
09. Venom
Tonight dance, dance,
follow the beats and lights,
venom that keeps you alive,
venom that gives you life
There's venom in your veins,
there's venom in your mind,
your bodies ask for more,
your bodies ask for more
There's venom in your veins,
there's venom in your mind,
your bodies ask for more,
dance like if you were going to die
tonight
10. Derelict deliria
They come from the back of my mind,
visions of me living strange lifes
and of crimes commited on preternatural times
refusing to die,
my derelict deliria...
(I come from the back of your mind)
(visions of you living strange lifes)
(and of crimes commited on preternatural times)
(I refuse to die)
(I'm your derelict deliria)
11. Can't reach the light
Today I died,
I saw my body
I left behind,
wrecked and bathed in blood
I can't reach the light
I'm dead
but I can't reach the light
12. Nobody but me
They try to subjugate me under their tyranny,
under their gods of blood, their gods of shame, their gods of the unique way
Being your own ruler is something their ego won't accept,
you rather are under their boots than use your own brain
Just show them independence and see how you are repressed,
lobotomized to make you fit in their herd,
Just show them that you believe in yourself and you will see
how they put you under scrutinity
Driving you with menaces of afterlifes and hells
to keep you in control until your death,
Power displays of the men their accolites embrace
sting you in your mind with sheer offense
I don't have to conquer my right to be,
I'm already free, I'm already me,
I won't worship you,
the only one I worship is me,
I will walk my path whenever I need it,
if the world subdue my soul, I'll fight for it,
I will ride the downward spiral of a killing spree,
no one will be left alive but me,
nobody but me
They say they are the masters, the ones who know the real trade,
your soul is theirs, your life is them, their opinions must be your way
Hypocritical hearts and pitch black minds under faces showing smiles,
by their acts shall you know them, by their acts shall you act
So much shit should not exist, I try to subsist
while they keep destroying all kinds of self esteem
and while I am alive they force me to survive
in that piss they call their way of live
when I see their lack of faith in the life that they say
they defend, the edge of darkness touches me
Light from the sky will be red and blood will rain over
their minds and the ashes of my soul will bury them
The light from the sky will be red
and blood will rain over their minds
and the ashes of my soul will bury them
their life being only a stain in time
My will
will devastate them like prey
and they'll choke
trying to swallow all my thorns
They'll vomit their rage
and their desire for revenge,
but they'll disappear
sunken on their own despair
Drowning on it
and rotting them,
on their knees upon their mediocrity
as on an altar of misery,
Nobody will stand my will,
nobody but me
I don't have to conquer my right to be,
I'm already free, I'm already me,
I won't worship you,
the only one I worship is me
I will walk my path whenever I need it,
if the world subdue my soul, I'll fight for it,
I will ride the downward spiral of a killing spree,
no one will be left alive but me,
nobody but me
Nobody but me
13. Noise therapy
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14. In my time of need
Denying my feelings I walked away from happiness,
time hit back, feelings got back, I missed what I lost by stupidity,
I thought the better ways were the shorter, quick paid ones,
I believed in myself in a twisted way that made me lose my mind
I had a time of need and I had it on all sides wrong,
reversing the meaning of all the gifts and wanting to be in my way all alone
The crime I did to me was staying away from myself,
a crime I did to me in my time of need
In my time of need
No more chance for my heart to get a whisp of better air,
what I thought it was independence was in fact my wish of having an easy take
Some of you perceived, approached to me, presented yourselves as my mates,
you made me even more fool than I was, you told me what I wanted to hear
I had a time of need and the fuckers used me for themselves,
reversing the meaning of all the gifts and wanting to be only them all the way
the crime I did to me was staying away from myself,
A crime I did to me in my time of need
In my time of need
Your good intentions were maquiavelism,
mocking me, taking advantage of my time of need...
you bastards!
Denying my feelings I walked away from happiness,
time hit back, feelings got back, I missed what I lost by stupidity
I thought the better ways were the ones recommended by them,
they made me believe that I was the one who drove my life
I had a time of need and I had it on all sides wrong,
reversing the meaning of all the gifts and wanting to be in my way all alone
The crime I did to me was staying away from my real friends,
a crime I did to me in my time of need
In my time of need
15. Outro [DRA.3]
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